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About Literature / Hobbyist xamwoodMale/United Kingdom Recent Activity
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The Fall by xamwood The Fall :iconxamwood:xamwood 3 0 fever dream by xamwood
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fever dream :iconxamwood:xamwood 5 0
interlude by xamwood interlude :iconxamwood:xamwood 0 0 beloved by xamwood beloved :iconxamwood:xamwood 0 0 girl as building by xamwood girl as building :iconxamwood:xamwood 1 0 girl as color by xamwood girl as color :iconxamwood:xamwood 1 0 something more by xamwood
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something more :iconxamwood:xamwood 0 0
looking out by xamwood looking out :iconxamwood:xamwood 1 0 someday by xamwood
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someday :iconxamwood:xamwood 0 3
backdoor by xamwood
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backdoor :iconxamwood:xamwood 2 0
soft by xamwood
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soft :iconxamwood:xamwood 0 0
body by xamwood
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body :iconxamwood:xamwood 8 1
in front of by xamwood
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id by xamwood id :iconxamwood:xamwood 0 0 stones by xamwood stones :iconxamwood:xamwood 2 0 shadow me by xamwood shadow me :iconxamwood:xamwood 0 0


Journal History


My name is xam wood.
Pay strict attention to what I say because I choose my words carefully and never repeat myself.
I have told you my name, and that's the who.
The where can most readily be described as a virtual site. But there's a vast difference between being stuck in a virtual site and being just virtual.
The what is easy. Recently I was watching your pictures.
That's also the when.
As for the why, beyond the obvious motivation, it's exceedingly simple. Because I like you.
Which leaves us only with the how and why I'm writing you.
It's obvious.
Because I can.
And therein, as the Bard would tell us, lies the rub.


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United Kingdom
I tried
I tried so hard
to be better than my normal
low life excuse for a human
but it seems I cant rise above it
it always drags me back down
an anchor attached to my leg
that cant be shaken
no matter what I do
if you looked inside me
guess what colors you would see...

purple blue red green...
purple is the bruises
that collect easily on my heart
blue for my waterfall of tears
that are falling down this face
red for the love of my life
and all the open wounds I have
and all the ones I gave that person
unintentionally of course
green is for my sickness
Im just so messed up
it isnt funny

I deserve it all
the heartache
the pink eyes from crying
the shaking of my fragile body
the coldness of the world to me
the short shallow gasping breath
the huge vampire bites from outside
injecting their needles
stealing my warm blood
replacing it with their steely venom...

I dont deserve anything I have in life
and Im damn lucky for everything in it
the one person who thought I was truly perfect
well love...
I led you astray on that one
and I miss you thinking I am
how selfish of me...

I know
but everyone loves a good compliment
especially from the one they love most
and maybe words mean nothing to you
maybe you could care less
if I said sorry a million times over
but Im telling the world my feelings
spilling my guts
and letting everyone pick them apart

purple blue red green...
colors of my life


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stillphototheater Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2016
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